My Dearest Friend ~
I’m sorry to hear of your strife. From the situation you’ve described, I would venture to say, you’re likely needing to decide between two mutually exclusive desires. The frustration, confusion, and lack of effortless flow that you wrote of, are indications of what I call the “muck.”
Often times we find ourselves having conflicting desires. For example, we want to go and we want to stay. By mutually exclusive, I mean we can’t have both… we have to decide. If we linger in the indecision, it can mess with the effortless flow we might otherwise experience.
Deciding is our power. We decide what to give our attention to, and if you remember from my previous letters, attention is our creative energy. Deciding what we will give our attention to, is how we create our life.
The bigger the decision, the deeper the muck. The good news is, as soon as you decide with conviction, one way or the other, the muck clears immediately.
The muck shows up as little nagging inconveniences, like lost keys and flat tires, and irritating circumstances, like being splashed by mud on the way to an important presentation, and worse. It shows up as a feeling of blah, when life has lost its sparkle. It shows up as headaches, and back aches, and low energy. Left unattended, the indecision leads to dis-ease.
When you know what to look for, the muck is easy to spot. If your life is not flowing easily and if you’re not feeling content and confident, there’s a good chance you have some indecision mucking up your life.
This may seem like a broad statement to say that indecision effects you all these ways, but it’s simple enough to test it out for yourself. Whenever things aren’t flowing as you’d like, look inside for decisions you’ve been riding the fence about. It could be one big life changing decision, but it could also be numerous little decisions.
Perhaps you’re considering changing careers or life partners. Get clarity and decide. Decisions like that can eat away at you, consuming your attention and messing with your flow.
Perhaps you’re considering a major purchase. Not as big of a deal as changing careers or divorce, but still it consumes your attention. You’ve narrowed it down to two or three favorites, but then you leave it hanging, you ride the fence… maybe this… maybe that. Can you feel what the lack of clarity and decision does to your energy?
When you have clarity about the essence of what you truly want, as I spoke of in a previous letter, decisions are much easier to make. You simply check the desires against the essence of what you want to experience and see which gives you more of that.
It is my hope these words will help you find peace and return to a joyful life.
Love, Shelia
